I woke up mega groggy today cuz I was up gabbing with Rich and Ves until about 6:40am this morning. I had to be up at 9am to go to church and I made it...but I fell asleep in church...and ppl noticed...again. I really have to stop these late "nite" talks and I have decided to stop them even though they are fun...sort of .

I left last nite's uberintensive conversation feeling kind of crappy though cuz I don't think Ves thinks any of the things I was saying were because I care about her. I think she thought I was just talking to be able to run off at the mouth...which really sucks cuz it's totally not true. I have always felt like I've tried to be her friend and while she probably doesn't outright hate me she doesn't really like me. And that hurts. And Rich? I dunno what's on there. Our friendship is not at all the same as it used to be, which is understandable since he's married but it seems like we clash every single time we get together but he still remains one of the best friends I've ever had so I know we'll keep repeating this cycle until something happens and we just totally lose touch.

Anyway...moving on...I went to a dinner party last nite and one of the questions I asked was "Guys who cry: cool or not?" The unanimous consensus was "NO!" but I think if a guy cries when you are both having a serious conversation (argument) or he cries cuz u are crying and he's just so upset that you are upset then that's mega cool. I can be sensitive sometimes so I would want a guy who was able to be strong when I'm crying over something but I'd also want a guy who isn't afraid to show emotion in that way.

Ok...I'm determined to finish my 100things page tonite...so I'm going to finish it up and post it so there will be lots to read today! Yay!

Posted on 2003-01-05 at 4:59 p.m. |